Errant

Dear,

Dear-

Theres no one to address. This room built around me like a cell with a window to prevent some madness, does not work as well as id hoped. Remember that they lied to you and it wasn’t always your fault and that they couldn’t look in the mirror when you could. Don’t forget to dream a little bit longer tonight and to wake a little further than that. Remember that theres no lower than hell and even God throws angels out of his kingdom. Don’t forget to pray tonight for something you arent willing to earn. Remember to water your plants. Don’t forget that itll take them a while to grow. Make sure your friends keep you grounded and make sure you don’t always fall for the hype. Remember that people have their own reasons and they often have nothing to do with you. Don’t forget that your window opens and you can breathe when you need to. Don’t fight everybody, just fight when you know it’s necessary. Remember that dreams die as often as yesterday so keep them close and remember them for as long as you can. Don’t forget that the pissy old man at work probably misses someone as badly as you do and for twice as long. Vicious or mercy, that’s the true dichotomy isnt it. Never knowing when to be the hunter or the hunted. The stable or the magnificent. The wise or the heard. The coldest or the most kindred. Don’t forget that there’s a place in life they make for indecisiveness, and it lives in the name of regret. Dear- You – reading this. Chaos is inevitable and its not the end of you. Its why it lives in you in the quiet moments. We spend more time preparing for it than we actually have to deal with it which confirms our bias. All it takes is once and the foundation you built in childhood is falling apart at the seams. I promise you, the weight stays the same but your ability to carry it makes it feel lighter. Remember that dogs go to heaven and cats were gods in egypt and scowls on nameless faceless people is nothing. Don’t forget that a silent saying to yourself can pull you back into reality. Remember that there are flowers that still bloom in the winter and the birds will always fly south. Don’t forget that Paris smells like garbage but its still Paris. Remember to laugh at your mistakes a little bit and don’t be so hard on yourself. The landscape we’ve been given is tricky to navigate for us all. Remember that you don’t have to count down to every possible terrible moment on the horizon. Above all, don’t let them kill the love out of you. Make that promise to yourself and love will always exist- in some small way.